hmm,today got ling gan to blog -.-
also dont know why..lols..
well,met up with mr shen,rachel and amelia to go sentosa de..
but as you can see,its raining just now.. -.-
we met at habour front..can you imagine how many stops i have to take?from one end of NEL to another end..
i was hoping that you are with me..but you're not..always.went that hawker centre to eat and amelia bought rachel a plate of carrot cake which cost $2..
then rachel wanted to pay amelia but she reject and tadaa,they argued..
and guessed what?rachel TORE the $2 and threw it away..so rich hor?
lols..and bla bla bla..then decided to go watch movie instead..
went bugis..then saw this basketball competition going on..i miss basketball so much..
it was my life last time..but i gave it up..sighs..
went to watch THE HOST..it wasnt scary..but abit gross to me.. LOL
and the cinema was FREAKINGLY cold.. -.-
and ya,it ended and all lor..
went kfc and watched amelia eat..and we started chatting..
my blog always very saddening meh?why so many people say that -.-
its just my thoughts and feelings..
anyway,ya..went home lor..
cause you couldnt or maybe dont even wanna meet me..hmm,some thoughts came to me when i was travelling alone just now..
to me,life or should i say love is like building a castle..
its either you live in it or leave it..and the one that you loved are like the concretes or materials..if the materials are not suitable,no matter how hard you try to build it,it'll still collapse..just like relationships..the more you struggle to not let go,the faster it'll collapse..
somethings cant be done or undone..if you find it hard to leave the castle,then live in it..and all you can do is to try and spend your life repairing all the damages done..if you're finding it hard to cope anymore,leave it..but its hard to leave the castle which you spent so much time building..
that you had wasted so much tears and blood and time in building..its not easy..but thats how life or love is..isnt it?either treasure it or leave it to rot..what for try to build a castle when you know that the materials are not suitable?
or in other words,what for try so hard to build a castle when you know that it'll sure collapse?when you build a castle,some people may come and destroy it..when you build a lake around it to protect it,some people will still fly in to destroy your castle..so why build one when you know that you'll get hurt from it?sometimes,you just hope that the one you loved so much to just step into your castle but still he/she didnt even bother..and thats when it starts to rot..thats all about love,isnt it?people are like this..we're all stubborn people..
or maybe its just me..insisting on trying to build a castle even when i know that the materials are unsuitable..insisting on not letting go even when we're people from different worlds..insisting on building one even when i know that you'll not even bother..insisting on building one even when i know that someone will surely destroy it..
true enough,someone told me i wasnt your type..indeed i wasnt..
and so,this castle is collapsing..after so much time spent on it..after so much tears and blood flowed because of it..after so much love given in to it..its just gonna collapsed..just like that?is it?i dont have the answer myself..
you're avoiding me..for what reason,i dont know..you dont wanna give me an answer..for what reason,i dont know too.all i know is,you're making me feel that you dont dare to say no.is that what you're trying to say?if so,you had done it..and you're successful in making me break down..for all i know,i've been missing you so much..whenever i wanna meet you,you'll have lots of reasons..i'm tired..tired of always trying to grab hold of hopes that i can meet you..tired of lying to myself..tired of giving myself false hopes..i read your blog..and i wondered if you do hate me?or that i'm such a nuisance?maybe i was..maybe all along,i'm just making a fool of myself..i dont wanna accept reality..i dont wanna get hurt..well,realised i didnt blackened the small words?lols..what for when so many people know the art of highlighting.. somemore those words are not that short.. -.-
finished blogging..its a long post today..hmm.. LOL -.-
the 8th..i'll never forget..