today school was ok ba..sighs..
not actually in good mood..
cause you're leaving today..had np today..had lecture first..
then followed by mdm jocelyn's briefing..
i remembered something that she said..
your trust and belief for someone is like a burning candle..
after a long time,your trust and belief will be gone..
just like the flame..because the candle had all melted..
nothing is left..just emptiness i guess..
then after that had UDI..
revised baton drill and learnt drill cane drill..
lols..the drill cane is so bloody damn long.. -.-
after that np ended..quite early though..
then went compass to eat..
went kfc and after that ESCORT jocelyn to her mama's car..
LOL..she said she wanted slow march then wati,michelle and me go slow march for her but then she ran away!
=( LOL..then after that we each person hold one thing for jocelyn and escorted her out..then i even open the car door for her lor..the she never give me tips.. =(( lols.. then her mama said something like so good escort my daughter or something lidat..lols..but that jocelyn dont appreciate lor..say what no one can be compared to her ler ler.. -.- lols..
then after that went back to kfc and asked samantha to help me buy a drink and i didnt eat..
its a miracle..i lost my appetite after i read that message..sighs..
well,after that i chased idiotic wong bigbird and i crushed into a small boy..
i know i'm lousy.i didnt see him.i'm always so useless anyway.and that cut there hurts so much again.then after that went back to kfc..you didnt give her a chance to even talk..
i'm disappointed..after that went home le..
on my way walking back home,i cried..its amazing right?you left..just like that..i didnt want to send you off..cause i know i'll be sad..since your decision months ago,i already gave up..and now that you're leaving,i'm sad..you had been my best friend..my listening ear..but now,you dont even know when you'll be back..or maybe you wont ever..i cried my heart out..my eyes were dry..but you'll never know..i dont know the time of your flight..but whatever it is,i hope you'll take good care of yourself..i wish you all the best..you're the best afterall..oh ya..take that fucking mask off your face..
you fucking face just keep appearing in my mind..
its irritating me..i dont need hypocrites in my life..
so just kindly fuck off..
to those who say i'm destroying my reputation by being vulgar,i'm who i am..i have no reputation what,thats what cynthia say what..so who cares..say whatever you want..i dont care..and i dont wanna care..
two more days.and i dread that day.17th.i dont wanna get hurt.