ok. i'm supposed to blog about today. but i'm in no mood now. currently, i am very freakingly sad. was in quite a good mood today. all the crap we did during np just now. but you made my mood change. all these while was just nothing.i waited for nothing.it just seem like i waited for you to hurt me.
hah. feel like i'm breaking down? oh wait. maybe i am already breaking down. how to not let some people view your blog other than putting password? any suggestions? i need one.

i'm tired. tired of waiting. tired of crying. i wasted everything on you. and i cant mend my heart back. teach me how. to forget you? i wanna hate you. i wanna get you out of my bloody mind. please, help me. i suddenly felt that you are so fake. all these while, it was just an act. why not you just say a no to me and stop making me suffer? why. i really want to hate you. but i just cant. i dont know if you would be reading this. if so, then pardon me. you had hurt me enough.

♥ Wednesday, October 18, 2006
8:48 PM