didnt blog for a day or two. been really upset and all. well, today went escape. was quite ok. but towards the end, i was very exhausted. by lots of things. dont feel like blogging much about today.

everything ended. just like that. just 2 words 'nothing happened' that hurt me so deep in. so all along it was nothing. nothing to you. but of course. you are the one being loved. not the one loving. yes. i dont need to have you so that you know i love you or express my love for you. but what about me? all along i was struggling with all those feelings when you're actually not giving it a damn at all. i dont choose to love you. i didnt give you up. i knew about what happen between both of you. so dont treat me like a fool. i regret giving my heart to you and now its shattered. and i have to pick those shattered pieces together and mend it back on my own. but how am i gonna do it? i gave you everything. i bought you so many gifts. just to make you happy. but what? i'm just wasting my time. my effort. my everything. and i guess i'm wasting your time too. have you ever thought of my feelings? hell no. i've heard all stories about you. how i hope it wasnt true. but it just seem more true now. you made me cry. you made me sad. but had i done anything to you? no. so why? why must you hurt me like that? i swear i'm gonna hate that school. its all because of that.

breaking my heart into a million pieces like you always do
and you don't mean to be cruel
you never even knew about the heartache
I've been going through
well I try and try to forget you girl
but it's just so hard to do

♥ Monday, November 13, 2006
12:01 AM