well. after much thoughts, i'm back again. i realised my previous post was kinda vulgar? no no. it's like. hmm. i'm too rash. okay. i've thought it over. whether or not you are a metal ruler now or still a curve ruler, it doesn't matter. as long as you're happy, it's fine. i'm not gonna say 'if you're happy, i'm happy.' it's bullshit. total bullshit. yes, i'm not happy. i'm upset by you. but it doesn't matter now. one person sad better than two or maybe three persons sad right? right. well, i'm not gonna hate you anymore. in fact i never did. cause everyone knows i can't. so! since you still hold a key to my heart and that you're the only one in my heart, i'll continue loving you as it is. tired also must carry on. why? cause i couldn't stop. so all i can do is! to pretend that nothing had ever happened between us and that you had NEVER know that i love you. so ya. c'mon everyone. let's play pretence now. wife said playing pretence is okay. so ya. those who are concerned, let's play pretence with me. don't mention the person's name in front of me unless i'm the one who mention it. so ya! that's my decision. EVERYONE LET'S PLAY PRETENCE! it's gonna be fun! =)

behind that door, it aint gonna be the same anymore. and only behind that door that i can be myself again. and i'm gonna try and put the past behind me. stop this nonsense and make everyone happy.

♥ Saturday, December 16, 2006
8:28 PM