okay. back not long ago. firstly, where did i go. hmm. shall summarize today's events. went school for mock exams. then went to lunch and home. came out again for leisure day campfire. was disappointed. not at the ncos but at some people. thus, we, which are joce, mich, becca, sam, amanda and i, went seven eleven for dinner. then after that struggled with that stupid bags of ice and not a word of thanks. oh well. went back and felt so out cast. so we, which is us in addition of ma'am joce, huiting, meiqi, simin, zhiyong and yanyang went to drink at sculpture park. and aaron and zhixiong. however, mich and joce left first. so ya. then talked and crapped. then ma'am was very sad. she drank another can of beer and was drunk. and she cried on my shoulder. i know i sound stupid but she fell asleep on my shoulder. for a moment. we woke her up and sent her home. she insisted on walking home though. so ya. she was so so so ... sighs. then ya. she reached home already and i walked home alone. felt pretty scared. was so damn dark and not a soul in sight. i called someone and someone hung up on me. bloody hell. sighs. and SO! i reflected and thought about some stuffs.
for example, what happened just now. i'm refering to school. so. when you need help, we'll help. and now that we had passed out, what do we get? outcast? what about ma'am? she contributed so much. and all she get was a bloody 96pockets CD cover? oh man. c'mon la.
next. its about care and concern. e.g,
case 1 : when A shows B concern, B may feel irritated.
case 2 : when B shows A concern, A may misunderstand.
case 3 : when B shows C concern, C may be over the moon.
so. conclusion is. concern may bring about happiness or misunderstandings. for me, its case 2. for people who understand, good.
someone belongs to case 1. another person is case 3. okays. i think its so obvious.
next was friendship. i guess that our squad girls will still meet up after graduation. i believe. its just whether we want to contact or not. no matter what happens, i believe we have each other. so ya. =')
sometimes, time may flies. some may think that you'll forget them. but still you wont. reason being, if you're close enough to contact each other occasionally, why bother to be so worried. and sometimes, when life really doesnt go your way, then too bad. change your way then. it might be different somehow. i may be thinking too much. and after what hoppo said, i finally understood. that it was only what i think. in other words, my wishful part of thinking. i dont mind being friends with you even when we cant become an item. i mean duh. better as friends then nothing. but if you feel irritated then hmm. i'm speechless la hor.
many a times, people feel that being alone is saddistic. however, it may not appear so. BUT! being alone for prolong periods IS saddistic. so ya. we should have a variety. hmm. guess thats all thats on my mind for the time being. =') well. hurt in the inside somehow. well well. =') its raining. inside.Labels: thoughts