i'm back in singapore. (: if i say i go backpacking, you believe? haha. well, who cares right. on the way out there, i passed by a very long expressway without streetlights. all you depend on is just your own car's headlights. so now, you should be feeling blessed to have an expressway lighted up. cars can go up to 160km/h which is a big no no in singapore. and then i reached my destination. my grandmother's house. its 10 plus at night. hmm. and so the night passed, with insects and mosquitoes as friends by the bed. i realised that my cousins are very pitiful. with their mother dead from suicide, they have their father out working and only seeing him once a week. they lack everything a child should have. mother's or even father's love. they dont have much toys too. its pretty sad to see them like that.

and so, the next day's lunch was much livelier. with my uncle's family coming to visit. the once so young and small sized cousin had grown so much. even taller than me. so much prettier and matured. her brother was pretty matured too. so much difference. they were once my playmates. and now, only awkwardness hang in the air. even a photo with them also takes much courage. not only from me, but them too. this goes to show how far we had drifted. since 3 years back and not talking to each other at all. well, cant be helped though. there is a big difference between us all no matter what. their chinese is so good while my chinese sucks like shit. and when i speak english, it would be weird for them.

well well well, there are tons and tons of thoughts in my mind. but i cant possibly type them out, nor can i pen them down. i think i'll go back much more often now. seeing how much everyone has changed and how much grandma and grandpa had aged made me realised how long i hadnt been back there. sighs. it was a very sad scene when we left. though we had smiles on our faces, we all knew that we were all gonna miss each other. i just hate all these parting scenes. sighs. anyway, shall upload some photos.


my cousins. isnt the girl on the right pretty? they all say i look like the boy sitting on the floor. do i? LOL.

grandma and grandpa. she was actually smiling. hmm. =']

these 2 are the kids whom i talked about just now. such poor earthlings.

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♥ Sunday, December 16, 2007
11:39 PM