out almost whole day today. watched p.s i love you at plaza sing at 1.45. thought the show was okay but due to malfunction of my brain, i didnt caught certain parts of the movie. slacked for sometime while cheryl and jayn have their lunch. talking about the movies, i'm pissed off by some stuffs. i swear i'm NOT gonna help anyone buy any tickets anymore. i dont care if i'm gonna be a party spoiler or not. i've paid so much and this is all i get. i know its not devien's fault. i'm just so pissed off okay. moreover, i'm in such a fucking bad mood today. even arcade didnt manage to have my mouth slit open, showing my teeth.

caught L change the world later on at 6.15pm. i think L's pretty cute. not that he looks cute but the way he behaves and present himself. however, the small boy's cuter. the way he treats L is like how you treat an elder brother. i kinda think its heartwarming, dont you think you? i think its a nice show afterall. though he died in the end. ...


talking about presentation. had a briefing in the morning. he [i dont want to name who] told me to shed my image. of course he said in a nice way. i'm not saying he's scolding me or what. i mean, its like you dont JUDGE a person's work on how they dress or whatsoever right. i mean, if a girl dont like to wear skirts doesnt mean that she is a homesexual RIGHT? i'm not saying you think like that or what la. i mean, its ridiculous isnt it? i know its the client's choice but hey, can you imagine it? you dont have jobs because you dont dress as feminine or you have short hair. what if guys have long hair? they have to cut. what if a guy is a sissy? then he wouldnt need to look for any job anymore. is that it? i think this is total crap, even though i know its how life is and how ugly the world is.


okay, nevermind. i'm in a total screwed up mood today. i had extreme mood swings. so ya. just leave me alone and i'll be fine.


i realised i dont know how to face you anymore. i stare at my phone everyday, hoping a message from you would come. hoping that there'll be a chance or even hoping that that one message can break the unseen ice between us. i dont know what to say. or should i say, i dont know WHAT to do. i want to at least be your friend again, and i know you're willing to. but i dont know how to. sighs.

CRAP. kaboom! may everything within me just explode into ashes along with me. as in literally me, myself. ah, crap.

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♥ Thursday, February 21, 2008
11:51 PM