i suddenly had this sense of lost in me. i realised i dont know what i want in my life. or rather what i can have. maybe i'm afraid. its like its better to not want anything. that way, if it goes away or say doesnt happen, you know, its like it wont matter. cause i didnt have it in the first place. i mean, you get it? you dont wish for something and then when it doesnt comes to you, you start blame everything or say, everyone around you. like why God is so unfair to you and kinda stuff. and then you starts to get upset and so on, grumbling about your life and all. but then, on the other hand, if you dont have anything that you want in life, you achieve NOTHING. absolutely nothing. so it just goes on and on. when you wish and it doesnt come through, you rant on and on. when you dont wish, you'll also rant on and on about accomplishing nothing. so why are humans so paradoxical?

i know its kinda weird to type such stuffs at like 2 am in the morning. but well, i think a lot at night. call me an emo kid i dont care. i always have sudden random thoughts at night. like what the fuck la.

and then realising your status was married didnt help much. damn.

i'm so damn fucking screwed. you happy now?

Labels: gan qing xian

♥ Friday, March 07, 2008
2:07 AM