i'm learning to smile, from the bottom of my heart.i cant help having this feeling of being kinda betrayed. as in seriously. i'm thinking now why i told you so much stuff about her. okay, shant elaborate.
i was kinda high and happy at first before i came online. and when i came online and read blogs, i realised about some stuff and it just sucks like shit. it made my heart sank a thousand feet. i'm not jealous or what. but its like, indescribable. okay, fine, maybe i am jealous but ya. it just feels so wrong. and i hate that kind of feeling. its like i'm being kept in the dark. ah fuck la.
lectures today are boring as usual. i realised i had never met someone in school before. no fate. hmm. oh well. after lectures was orientation. wanted to skip it but went in the end cause steph called and say must go. -.- left halfway though. not that i find it boring but i'm going out. LOL. heard that 1a05 got 3rd! GOOD JOB! 1a05 is love. (:
went on to meet dev and fio. bus-ed down to compass which is freaking ex. met cher and bec. i swear cher is damn AUNTIE. omg. then met mong. and saw mich by coincidence. i miss mich! organise a NP outing soon yeah?!
trained to ps and caught the movie forbidden kingdom. the movie was alright la. pretty funny at times but the people in the cinema sucks. to think i actually said shutup loudly so that the people behind can actually close their mouths. like seriously la. hmm. and dev was pissed off by the people beside her. of course not me. -.- LOL. then ya.
trained back and wanted to walk home. but i realised i was too or rather VERY tired. so ya.
out tomorrow. fyrhto's outing. i wonder if i'm able to wake up on time. sighs.
lots of things are running on my mind. things that happened recently. its like one million and one problems. coming one after another.
if i have a choice, i dont want to go home.
that feeling of telling you to go for it and putting a smile at the end sucks. but still, do go for what you think is happy. fuckit.
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♥ Saturday, April 26, 2008
1:24 AM