its stupid to be crying now
and yes, i am
i looked through the photos
and they came down despite holding them back
so much memories
so much love
gone for 4 months yet i haven let go
useless right
im an emotional freak
i can blame no one but myself for falling in love with that person
we have great difference in personality
yet i just cant let go
i dont want to
but i know, that person had never thought of me ever since then
A loves B yet B loves C
what to do
i thought i could let go by deleting texts from you
deleting your contact
but actually, i can never forget your number
however, i tried
i really tried not to contact you
how many times i looked at my phone, wishing you'll contact me
how stupid am i eh
you dont even bother about me now
and even if you wanna contact someone, the person wouldnt be me
im stupid im useless
everything i do, i cant do it right
in love, in studies, everything
i failed terribly as a lover
studies, im repeating one sub
how sad was that
so much things i wanna say but i cant
cause i know, im no longer one who can speaks freely anymore
ineedyou

♥ Friday, April 03, 2009
3:58 AM