life's being too much of a bitch recently
met up with some np lovelies today
mood was pretty much happy till later on
had some chatting session or rather crying session for someone just now
i mean not i cry but someone else
i seriously dont know what to do
after so long you suddenly tell me such things
how on earth do you expect me to react or do?!
hell knows what you want
so am i supposed to go heaven?
hell.earth.heaven.
k not funny.
pretty much fucked up these few days
missed my cousin's church wedding just to play friendly
in the end didnt even play
so if you were me, how would you feel
yes, im not good enough
but not good enough to even be given a chance?
alright fucked up bitch is complaining again
yes i am
told my sis about it
and she said try again
right. one more year to try.
thats A LOT of opportunities eh
k sarcasm detected
yes im disappointed yes im upset yes im angry with myself for being so lousy
and i cant rant to any of them
i have to act its alright
yeah yeah its okay huh life's gonna be better huh
oh wow what a lie
yes i feel very extremely fucked up now
and someone just made me feel like an asshole, a bastard
fuck
JUST WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO?!
DAMN
yes i know im not the only one having problems i know i know
and i wanted so much to help someone else
but i dont know how to
not when they keep everything to themselves
and ive learnt my lesson not to probe too much
cause they always have the impression that when i ask or care about someone, im interested in that person
im not saying its not true but its not ALWAYS true
get it?
ah fuck
i just feel so tired now
i dont feel like talking much
okay, apparently ive ranted quite a lot
so yeah
DAMN BYE